story from my previous post:
So today, I wake up in a shitty mood. #AuntFlow
is in town for a visit and she’s just awful. I get on the scale and I’m 216. Annoying because yesterday I was 215. I’m eating all the right #healthy
foods, tracking my #totalcarbs
and making sure my protein and sugars are in the correct levels and I’m feeling #defeated
because I gained weight.
I go sit outside and watch the rain fall and drink my cup of warm water and lemon and read more of my @saragottfriedmd
book then go back inside and see that Raf has moved the scale to the living room. I get back on and I’m now at 218.4.
I lose it. I’m now 3 lbs heavier and I’m doing EVERYTHING right. So he moves it back and I’m now at 217. This is annoying.
I go to check my #bloodsugar
and can get enough blood to get a reading. Raf is now in the bedroom on his phone and I’m in the kitchen struggling and annoyed and have now poked myself 6 times trying to get blood and have gone through two error readings.
I finally yell at Raf to come help me. Mad at him for really no reason. He comes and saves the day and gets my blood sugar reading but then he leaves and I can’t get the fucking needle pen thing broken down to store away. I start sobbing. He finally comes over and helps then I go to the bedroom and continue to #cry
for about 30 minutes just absolutely feeling so #sorryformyself
A few hours go by, I finish the book and decide I need to get up and get a grip and remembered the exercise in the book about not letting my inner voice get to me. So I put on make up and that’s where I 👈🏼 am right now.
#weightloss #weightlossjourney #health #food #groceryshopping #storytime #makeup #emotions #feelbetter #innervoice #benicetomyself